I sat for a long time just staring at this photo on my computer. Just thinking. Remembering. Pondering life’s changes. This is Horsetooth Reservoir in Fort Collins, CO. This photo was taken this past January, but I’ve been here before about 2 years ago. In July of 2015 I travelled here with my friend Caitlin. We were staying in Boulder with her family, but made a late afternoon/ evening trip to Fort Collins to visit the town and go to the drive in movie theater there. A old college friend of mine owns a shop in downtown Fort Collins so we saw her and she gave us a tip that we should go see Horsetooth Reservoir before the movie, so we did. We followed the winding roads up the hill at sunset. When we turned the bend and saw the view of the mountains and water and the sunset colors on the horizon, it was breathtaking. We drove to the top as far as we could and I made Caitlin stop the car so we could get out and I just wanted to stare at the beauty of God’s creation. It was so tranquil and lovely and green from summer.
This past January, my family travelled to Colorado for my Uncle’s funeral. He was killed while on duty working security near Union Station in Denver. The reason for our visit was much different than mine had been two years prior and that weight has been carried with us. However, it was good to see extended family and before we left to fly home to Atlanta we had a little bit of time to explore so I told my family about Horsetooth Reservoir, which was a short drive from where we were in Loveland, CO. It looked much different this time. The earth was brown from winter. The wind was strong and cold so we didn’t stay long and it was the middle of the afternoon, so no colorful skies this time. But, the view was still beautiful… just in a different way. Time changes things. Seasons change. I am not the same person I was 10 years ago or even two, but I am reminded that God’s love is constant always.
I was reading this yesterday morning about creating space to be with God and allow Him to move. This photo has also reminded me of that. These wide open vistas are something I want to run to - physical space to be with God and his creation. Building space doesn’t have to look like this mountain. It can be building out time for rest, prayer, and activities that are life giving. This is definitely something I have to work at - especially when I feel like I have so many moving pieces of life all happening at once, but I am thankful that the Lord is sanctifying and refining me each day and that he is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow.
“You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land where there is no water.
I have seen you in the sanctuary and beheld your power and your glory.
Because your love is better than life, my lips will glorify you.
I will praise you as long as I live, and in your name I will lift up my hands.
I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods;
With singing lips my mouth will praise you.”